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Samination
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 Posted - 2019/11/25 : 00:42:31
even if the hardcore scene was small, i doubt releasing the tracks would've stopped dj's like hixxy (or Sy & Unknown in your reference to my piracy days) from being booked.
We've been living in an age where big names will always pull crowds, even if a no-name could play the exact same tracks for some time now.
If our hate for MC Storm would've mattered, he would've been unbooked ages ago. Or MC Keyes and Squad-"for the love of go back to rehab"-E
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SparkzMusic
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 01:06:06
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Originally posted by Samination:
even if the hardcore scene was small, i doubt releasing the tracks would've stopped dj's like hixxy (or Sy & Unknown in your reference to my piracy days) from being booked.
It was in reference to me being butthurt? Nobody has to be butthurt to have a gripe with someone. You took money off them especially with the digital releases (Oli_G_and_Gammer_-_Photex-MP3-2005-Q91 (ABR) DIGI007).
Therefore it's a natural conclusion that you yourself were butthurt to be shafting people out of money.
On that basis, everyone hated Gammer in 2005? Nah. Most people loved him back then sadly. Our hate for Mc storm mattered little because he was part of the package. Sy and Storm. Vibes and Livelee show, etc.
I'm more upset and feeling bad that my lovechild LeVzi (Gotta have that V placed right), doesn't like me. It's LaMe and UnSetTling. Ah well, just gotta sit back and have a nice chillout to "LeVzi Demo 2007".... Ah **** it's just blown my monitors (legit, I think I've popped an eardrum) and that was only the type to voice "Dj Levzi" part at the start. Nooooo
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SparkzMusic
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 04:16:52
LeVzi why do you not upload classics like this anymore? (Which you did and submitted to me as a release entry):
Such a great song. It's done a lot for the scene in all these years. Top stuff mate.
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SparkzMusic
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 06:10:54
Sketchy,
Sorry to hear that and fair play, sorry to hear about your health. I fully hold my hands up and admit I've made a mistake. You've done nothing wrong whatsoever.
I've been a tosser entirely and for most the part, with my own mental health stuff (as people here who know me will agree), I take shit too far and go overboard. 2bh, I only post on here when pissed anyway (as when sober, anxiety gets the better of me), usually that means I have a gripe with someone about a non issue and let it vent, massively going overboard and being a complete twat. Sadly at that moment, I saw your comment first really. You've helped make some classics and are an asset to the core scene.
Sincerely I apologise and it's rare I say that here. Respect man and any time you want to talk about mental health stuff if it's down to a low point again, give me a buzz as I know what it's like (Trust me, the pug in all my music vid uploads has saved me).
Respect and genuine apologies again... keep posting here!!!!
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SparkzMusic
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 06:53:52
Ah my boy LeVzi.
No that's not how it happened at all.
You sent me your work back around 2007, yes? That was for Lightning Sunset Records. That was dead and buried.
Fast forward to HP2 and what happened? You were trying to call shots even though you had nothing to provide. I came up with a good idea for the album of a totally optional entry fee. Each submission could pay ?5 if they wanted to be entered into a raffle to have a bigname remix their entry. This was entirely optional as stated and gave small names a chance to have their track remixed and likely featured on bigger albums by a huge name for a small fee (Funding had to come from somewhere).
You hated that idea. You totally slated it, even though I'd paid a fair chunk of cash from my pocket to get some big names on board to support the album.
Originally back on HP after you made a song and dance, I put your old work up, not to laugh but to say "He's slating it but he's done shit all to help, lets see what he's done". There was no malice as I stated it was your old early days work and you just didn't have anything new to offer but were trying to call the shots.
Nobody laughed. The usual regulars just brushed it off and nothing came of it. I then stepped away from the project for a few reasons.
I don't do that to anyone. You've always had the high horse that you can do better and what comes of it? Nothing. Then you admit to disliking me, which no doubt stems back to the HP2 fiasco.
Logically I'm going to defend myself and if you are someone like me, with very little to live for anymore, who drinks more beer than water and in my mental state would rather have a reaction from someone than silence (As I have to live with day in, day out), then it's all too logical
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SparkzMusic
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 06:56:34
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Originally posted by DJ Sketchy:
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Originally posted by SparkzMusic:
Sketchy,
Sorry to hear that and fair play, sorry to hear about your health. I fully hold my hands up and admit I've made a mistake. You've done nothing wrong whatsoever.
I've been a tosser entirely and for most the part, with my own mental health stuff (as people here who know me will agree), I take shit too far and go overboard. 2bh, I only post on here when pissed anyway (as when sober, anxiety gets the better of me), usually that means I have a gripe with someone about a non issue and let it vent, massively going overboard and being a complete twat. Sadly at that moment, I saw your comment first really. You've helped make some classics and are an asset to the core scene.
Sincerely I apologise and it's rare I say that here. Respect man and any time you want to talk about mental health stuff if it's down to a low point again, give me a buzz as I know what it's like (Trust me, the pug in all my music vid uploads has saved me).
Respect and genuine apologies again... keep posting here!!!!
Ahh mate that?s really good of you to say. Thanks. Yeah they have me on these god awful injections once a month. I have black outs all the time on it. Doctors can?t do anything about the black outs though, as I have low blood pressure.
I have built myself a kick ass music studio at home. So committing the next 3-5 years studying hard and hopefully making a go of it!
Also I am pressing my original material Hardcore album with the Organ Donors next year. Pressing 2000-3000 copies. Then handing them out after raves and online!
No probs man. Sorry to hear about the injections. It sounds really tough.
Studying? Already talented though with the work you've done? Sweet, will be on the lookout for the album. Bangin stuff
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SparkzMusic
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 07:01:33
LeVzi, I was winding you up overall.
My production is total shit. We all know that.
I have serious issues. Like huge. I'm on disability myself at the moment and unfit to work. I deliberately chose the worst bit of your sample mix to put up for the sake of getting a reaction.
It's not all like that and some of the sounds and samples you used, which I told you at the time were decent with other parts of your tracks. One which had a Slipmatt style kick was decent.
That ain't bad at all
"oh it's not me, its my bipolar making me do it"
Not at all, I don't have bi-polar. I have others which just means I'm very reserved and quiet, but when combined with my circumstances, I often feel there's nothing more in life than to drink. The booze can potentially play havok in combo and sometimes I exceed my confidence and post here. When it's like that, I don't care who I offend or what I say because afterall, I don't have anything to live for and I feel I've done my duty to the scene.
The answer? Carry on as I am or quit drinking and have nothing. We all know the NHS aren't any good at providing any help.
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SparkzMusic
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 07:50:37
Nah it's a load of shit round here. Been trying to move for ages to get something like that. I had a guaranteed swap a few months back but said swapper pissed me around last minute. Social prescribing is definitely a great thing when its available.
The in-between parts are tricky when waiting to move as it means anti-d's which have done nothing but make me want to off myself even more, or drinking, which although is great becomes a "pissant" when I can't even look at forums, let alone post unless I've had a good few.
That's actually mad, being at a point where it's impossible to integrate or take anymore semi blows while sober, so it's all left until when pissed, then it's the "give no shits" and "tear everyone to shreds" feeling.
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The drunken scotsman
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 07:56:32
Theres nothing like a good Hixxy thread to get the chat buzzing on this forum.
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SparkzMusic
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 08:00:49
Can't beat it :D.
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 09:07:22
I'm not plastering over anything? I was out of order with many things, fact. We've had 2 things over your work but the last time didn't end like this? You laughed, shrugged it off. All was good.
Equally I'm not saying your track had good elements to it when it was shit. It wasn't shit, there's that decent Slipmatt kick to it and a few positive elements.
No excuses, I've been like this for years on the forum, although covered it up well after. Having a dig or whatever, then the next day covering it up with "oh, didn't mean it in that way" and it's all "ahh, I see, no worries".
I only upload stuff of mine when I've specifically been getting smashed to that track. When sober I don't even listen to music. I just get by as best I can. When drunk I have that nostalgic buzz and confidence to post online, but as of lately it's been getting pretty lame for various reasons.
I'm probably yet to hit that point where health and body literally says no more.
My life does consist of nothing and the severe anxiety prevents there being anything else. I mean, it was only a few weeks back I was down the pub not even drinking booze. Some nice looking lass approached me and you know what her assumption was after we started chatting? Questioning if I'd been on drugs because of my shaking. Another massive set back because of mental health.
That's the story of my life though. People like Mansy, Martin-J and a few others here can legitimately vouch for that being the case with me struggling, they've known me for years. They know a lot about what I've gone through and what it's like for me.
Why is it that I'm in full receipt of disability benefits where even the assessment staff have stated I clearly need more support that I'm getting? ESA assessors are notorious, but in my case they've always been very understanding.
I've been back to the doctors no less than 30 times in the last 10 years to try and help myself. Always fobbed off, either given meds I've later tried to end my life with or sent away with some nonsense sheet of paper.
There is no self pity or anything. My family have died, it is what it is.
What's the "help within" with that? Being accepting of it? It doesn't just happen like that. It needs medical intervention which I'm simply not given.
Same as when I walk out that door, I'm a nervous wreck. Kids in the street frequently laugh at my symptoms. It messes up my own life where I can't even buy a loaf of bread at a shop without coming home in tears because of the symptoms. Where's the "help within" for physical symptoms I can't just control?
It's past any help within, I'm in need of serious medical help which the services just can't provide.
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SparkzMusic
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Posted - 2019/11/25 : 09:23:03
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Originally posted by LeVzi:
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Originally posted by SparkzMusic:
I don't have many memories about this HP2, I disliked a few people on that forum , like Hashlygreen and Douglas who were *******s, and you only used my old track for yours and that other guys amusment, what was his name ? Virtue, virtual ? Something like that. I have never said , ever, that I can do better than anyone in music production, simply because I class myself as an amateur and hobbyist, so for you to say I was going around telling people I could do better is laughable and a lie.
HP was a good place, I learnt a fair bit there inbetween the ********, it's no secret im not a fan of UK Hardcore, always preferred earlier music, but I tried to get into it. And tried to make it, never really achieved much but it allowed me to find my true love which is terrorcore, and I had more success with.
So hearing this regurged now, makes me laugh, because you are grasping at straws for reasons to be a pr!ck, and coming up short. You can keep calling me all the cu_nts going if it makes you feel better, really doesnt bother me, but don't lie about sh!t, to justify yourself nor keep telling us you drink more alcohol than water now cos its all you got left, cos you'll get no sympathy from me.
Like I said in the the post, I can show you where there is help, it's up to you if you use it or not.
Yeah I remember those people. Virtue but he had long left by then?
It was more to do with trying to call the shots when you weren't even offering anything. The ?5 optional payment per submission was a great idea as people could have bagged a ?300 remix by a big name for ?5. You didn't like that idea and slated it massively.
That was at the time with the Mark Breeze fiasco where I'd asked him how much it would cost to remix a track and he said some stupidly high amount. I posted what he said publicly and he went tits slagging me off on his own fan page.
I'm not grasping at straws, I'm being honest. I don't care about your sympathy or anyone else's for that matter. If I wanted sympathy I'd still have my fanpage running and go off sobbing to them. I deleted it, just like I deleted my old SC account with over 1000 subs and Youtube channel which had around 5000.
You appeared to want reasons for my behaviour, I've given them. In fact if you look at a post I did around 6 months ago, I was actually asking for a way to delete my HHC account to prevent incidents like this.
I'd rather be shut off from society and just try and do what I can.
Let's be honest here, If I'm at a point where I'd happily trash my place or delete all my production profiles I spent over 10 years building up, what would it matter to me if I was having a go at a few people on a forum?
Very little really, although I've explained the facts behind it and for those it offends I am sorry.
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SparkzMusic
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Posted - 2019/11/29 : 22:29:12
Ok, so let's clear a few things here. I just cant believe you are missing the massive point here.
So, you dislike me because I posted up some of your work because you were slagging off the HP3 album (it was 3, not 2, thankfully when we did HP2 I don't recall you posting anything about it) because I was giving people an optional chance to win a bigname remix of their work.
You were a huge reason why I myself dropped out of HP3 because of how snide and derogatory of HP3 you were, even though you had nothing to provide for the album yourself. Before I dropped out I worked hard to get a lot of people on board including Havok who did the teaser mix and Matt Envy and Frooty to do the main mix (They made an awesome intro which I have posted up since).
The teaser mix was already out by Havok, but when pulling out of the album series, I also took Matt Envy and Frooty away from the series too before they did their mix.
I think my actions with posting your work were entirely justifiable. You were trying to act like the series belonged to you, yet wouldn't provide a thing for it.
That's all the full on past though and like I said, was a no hard feelings justifiable thing.
Since then I've done so much for the scene and my love of it. I spent ages doing tutorials, then making tracks which I then had messages about signing them to labels but I refused and gave the tracks away for free instead.
I would say I've been more than respectable, even though I haven't been too well over the years. Where when things were too tough, id just vanish silently with deleting my accounts.
My anxiety has progressed over the years which is why I've become even more silent. That's just how it is. Struggling to even respond to people who have messaged me, nothing to do with booze.
I drink because it's a blip in my life caused by a lack of NHS support. Simple as that and many can relate to what I'm saying.
You could say it's comfort for underlying issues which the NHS just don't have the resources to support. Certainly I'm no alcoholic and I don't drink that frequently overall.
In fact, can you believe I've been self medicating with alcohol for nigh on 7 or 8 years? No? Because I've just got on with it.
In recent times, yes the self medicating has perhaps gone overboard, where I sit in silence for 2 weeks, crack open the drinks and have a lot to say. While you might think it's harsh, it's in terms of on a forum. It's not me judging anyone in real life or anything like that.
It's what people have said on a forum which isn't the same as real life. This isn't about looks, real life personality or anything like that. It's not trolling, it's responding and saying things to words on a screen.
I've gone overboard, I admit that. That is a mental health instigator which is often fuelled by booze, which is why I've repeatedly asked for my account to be deleted.
Childish, silly, stupid, yes. It's the mental health that doesn't agree with me overall.
Anyway, will leave it at that. Still my words stand with wanting the account deleted, I will log out and hope PW is forgotten from the saved PW thing.
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htid_4_life
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Posted - 2019/12/02 : 23:30:20
and erm, back to that point, so he isn't realising the new remix any time soon?
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Sulphurik
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Posted - 2019/12/03 : 20:23:50
Yeah about Hixxy, have always been quite a big fan of his productions from the early days, 1995/1996 and on the Bonkers albums and first 4 or 5 Clubland Xtreme Hardcore albums. The last track can think of I liked from Hixxy is Sora Blue. Always liked his Raverbaby style from Bonkers 8 to about Bonkers 16. One of my favourites styles from him was the trancey/ Raverbaby sound around Bonkers 12 including tracks like Yum Yi Tantric and Tru love obsession.
Disappointing releasing his back catalogue never materialised although there were about 20 HTID digital releases in 2011/2012 but previous songs should have been made available. But nowadays recent productions seem to be Gareth Emery remixes...
* on related note has noticed Anti-social My Way (Re-Con remix) which had missed. Sounds a decent but old remix now. Still prefer Hixxy's My Way Bonkers 8 remix.
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