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 Posted - 2009/09/02 : 00:21:04
I remember 1-2 years ago.. I had my girlfriend which I was kinda together with for like a year. Well nobody knew about it, it was like unofficial. But we were happy. And then something happened, that hurt me, but like.. it hurt me forever, and today I'm still not the one I used to be. I'm still hurt and I'm scared of relationships. It's like it was yesterday.
Now I've come to the point where my life is an absolute piece of trash.
So first thing, I've been kicked from school! Why ? Because we have had a scholarship, which didn't come from the school, but from the french governement ( I go to a french school ) and yeah they told the school to do something against it ( after all my school costs some thousand € so yeah, you see that's a lot of money, as it's an elite school ) and they kicked me to have more place for new people who bring more money! Poeple with worse grades then me who were paying full price of the school managed to stay there! And they said they kicked me because I was bad!!
So we were searching for a new school. But its september and school starts now. All school are full. I have no school. I have nothing at the moment, that's horrible.
Then a girl hurt me again ... everything was perfect but she had to destroy everything because she wanted to hear the "I love you" a bit.. earlier (?) and couldnt wait and yeah so she put me under pressure and stuff, which, even if whatever she says is not true, hurts me a lot.. especially after what happened some time ago with the other one.
Now I don't know what's going on with my friends. I had a lot of them, who were always there 4 me, and now there are just a few left.. I haven't done anything wrong, they're just .. retarded.. just because smoking week doesnt make me high, does that mean Im uncool ? Sorry but if I wanna get high I buy a bottle of vodka instead of taking 15 mins for making a stupid joint!
Oh and you should know all of my friends are either : DnB-smoking-joint-weeds-freaks, or snobs who listen to House. Nobody listens to Hardcore. And the people from the austrian gabber scene are ( sorry to say that ) the last crap. Well I don't like Gabber anyway..
I'm wondering why people can't be NORMAL ??! I love House, I love DNB, I love Hardcore.. But I hate their styles !!! Well DnB style aint bad appart of the weed smoking underground-cool-chillax-stuff which makes me puke but yeah. I don't like these snobs. And I don't like these "gabber ravers".
Okay so cool I have like 3 friends left, I have no school, I have no more girl, I actually have nobody on my side, and as you see I'm writing this here coz I dunno who else I could tell this story.. I should be out now, partying, but no I'm sitting here and writing my story.
Back to the school thing.. I cannot go to another school because I went to a french school. I havent learned the vocab in german . and even if - all school are full. And as I'm 16 and I don't need to go to school anymore..... so probably I won't even go to it anymore. I will have no job later , I can feel it …
And no I can't go to france because it's too far away blablabla plus I don't want and so on and so on.. you see, I'm lost.
I don't even have someone anymore to tell that, thats why I'm writing it here.
I've been to a partybeach for about 3 weks now. My friends there ( which I see like 2-3 times a year ) are so much cooler than the ones here! Those 3 weeks were awesome. I came back here and nobody is answering me. I'm so ****ing annoyed of this ****ing city and this ****ing country I wanna ****ing go away from here and find some normal people !! THIS IS UNBELIEVABLE HOW CRAP IT IS HERE!! IF YOU EVER GO ON A TRIP, NEVER COME TO AUSTRIA!!!!1
So yeah I don't know what to do. If you really think about it.. very deeply.. in each detail.. life's shit, eh ?
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Posted - 2009/09/02 : 01:40:02
I'm sad :( I want my girl back :(
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Posted - 2009/09/02 : 01:55:25
in many ways i feel the same, but dude u got it rough :(
one day at a time, and keep looking at the brighter things in life. this crap can't last forever and you should look to the future and try all you can to make that future as prosperous as possible.
g'luck man.. :(
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Posted - 2009/09/02 : 01:56:43
Hey, I feel for you, man. I don't know what to say to make you feel better but hopefully venting has done part of the job.
I can totally relate to the girl issue (though, in my case it's obviously the other way around). After my ex broke up, I was torn to shreds and I'm still scarred. I used to fall in love all the time but I just can't do it anymore and now a year after I still can't get over my ex. I miss it all still and I feel like I judge other "interests" by his standards and therefore, since they're not like him, I can't fall in love. It's a nasty habit. So I think I know how you feel and it's not fun at all. I can't imagine how it must feel with all that other shit happening to you at the same time, you really seem to have it rough at the moment.
Well, I can give you a big, manly, Swedish hug! They're the best! :D
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Posted - 2009/09/02 : 02:02:31
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Originally posted by DJ Revs:
I'm sad :( I want my girl back :(
I don't truly feel your pain, specificly the girl part because I don't have those troubles, but I agree with the love part.
If you don't feel it, why say it? To make them happy? Is it truly love if you just say it to make them feel better? I'm just a hater of people that throw the word love around like it means nothing. It annoys the crap out of me.
If you didn't feel like saying it then, then she shouldn't of pressured you. But, I guess she just wanted to hear you say it. But something just tells me if you did say it, she'd think like you didn't mean it. Or something.
Life is shit. Life has always been shit. The thing is, you either fight through it, or you get crushed underneath it.
And living life, if you can call it that, while being trampled over is no way to live. That sentence sounded really weird, but I think you know what I mean.
This isn't a Disney film, dude. You have to fight for what you want, or you don't get it. That's the way it's always been. And unless somehow Earth becomes a Utopia, where everything is always right, and nothing ever goes wrong, and everyone is always happy and gets what they want you're just gonna have to deal with it.
Sorry if I sound pessimistic, but really. It's the truth.
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Posted - 2009/09/02 : 02:04:02
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I'm just a hater of people that throw the word love around like it means nothing. It annoys the crap out of me.
This.
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Posted - 2009/09/02 : 02:05:22
Yeah it's horrible, after a year I was still comparing all the girls to her.. and none was better.. it was really hard to get over it. And now that there's this new one, she makes shit again. Holy crap that's unbelievable...
Thanks guys that's very nice from you ! But I guess this night will be sleepless, I'll have thousands of things going trough my head, images which somehow got saved in my brain, of things I wish I never saw :(
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Posted - 2009/09/02 : 02:18:01
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Originally posted by TheOneNOnly:
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Originally posted by DJ Revs:
I'm sad :( I want my girl back :(
I don't truly feel your pain, specificly the girl part because I don't have those troubles, but I agree with the love part.
If you don't feel it, why say it? To make them happy? Is it truly love if you just say it to make them feel better? I'm just a hater of people that throw the word love around like it means nothing. It annoys the crap out of me.
If you didn't feel like saying it then, then she shouldn't of pressured you. But, I guess she just wanted to hear you say it. But something just tells me if you did say it, she'd think like you didn't mean it. Or something.
Life is shit. Life has always been shit. The thing is, you either fight through it, or you get crushed underneath it.
And living life, if you can call it that, while being trampled over is no way to live. That sentence sounded really weird, but I think you know what I mean.
This isn't a Disney film, dude. You have to fight for what you want, or you don't get it. That's the way it's always been. And unless somehow Earth becomes a Utopia, where everything is always right, and nothing ever goes wrong, and everyone is always happy and gets what they want you're just gonna have to deal with it.
Sorry if I sound pessimistic, but really. It's the truth.
He's right. Life doesn't fix itself...
If you're life is really bad, you need courage to change the things you can, serenity to accept the things you can't change, and the wisdom to know the difference.
You see, you've just identified the problems. Thats a good thing, Manoel, but now you have to isolate each problem and see how it can be fixed, or made more bearable..
Love is a scornful thing for a teenager when it doesnt go his way... Girls can be bitches and can be unpredicatble, and as much as it hurts you cant change it, really. You aren't alone, though.. I know how u feel. I could gointo detail, but there's no point, it'll be an identical story to yours or anyone elses. All i can advise is to move on. Don't look at the girls who let you down, dont talk to them and slowly, but surely you'll recover from the pain..
As far as schooling is concerned, if you can, get a job. If you can't learn, earn money for when you might need to learn, or live alone. If not, maybe home schooling is the answer?
As for friends, don't dismiss them straight away. Though, its best to find new ones... A job might enable you to meet new people. if you can't meet new people, use the ones you have for company. you dont have to like or speak to them but keep them at ur side for you're own appearence.. That's what i did with my bad friends until the end of college.. At the end of the day, where are weed smoking losers like them going to get compared with someone intelligent like u?
Nice one for sharing ur feleings, we might not know what each other look like, and we may only see words, but people across the world should and can be 'friends' and we can offer advise.
:) Get some liquid drum n bass going n get a smile on. maybe ur overtired ;)
PS, a girl i drunkenly met frauded my credit card! I hope she enjoys the £20!!
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Posted - 2009/09/02 : 02:29:31
Yeah, I'm Agnostic, so I don't really know if there is a 'god', but I believe everyone has their purpose.
And that everyone has their special someone. Like my girl for example. Literally we have everything in common. EVERYTHING. And we've done almost everything the samewhen growing up, but we never knew each other. Like, everything in common. We even had the same locker numbers all through high school. But we lived a state apart, and never knew each other until this year. Even her old locker combination was mine, but backwards. Mine was 26-36-06 her's was 06-36-26, really.
So I can't help but not believe someone is out there for everyone. Someone perfect for you.
The thing is, life is a bitch. It's always a bitch. And unless you fight back, you won't get anything. The perfect girl for me was a state a part. All I saw it was fate, and life, pushing against me. I fought back, and now I'm the happiest I've ever been.
So the only advice I can give you is: Fight back. Fight back with every ounce of your strength. The minute you give up is the minute you die. In my opinion, anyway. The only way to get ahead is to fight back, and be competitive. That's the way it's ALWAYS been. And until you work hard for a better life, and a better future, it'll never come.
So, dude, life is tough. But don't give up. Giving up solves nothing, and only causes more sadness, more regret, and a crappier life.
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Posted - 2009/09/02 : 02:47:46
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Originally posted by TheOneNOnly:
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Originally posted by DJ Revs:
I'm sad :( I want my girl back :(
I don't truly feel your pain, specificly the girl part because I don't have those troubles, but I agree with the love part.
If you don't feel it, why say it? To make them happy? Is it truly love if you just say it to make them feel better? I'm just a hater of people that throw the word love around like it means nothing. It annoys the crap out of me.
If you didn't feel like saying it then, then she shouldn't of pressured you. But, I guess she just wanted to hear you say it. But something just tells me if you did say it, she'd think like you didn't mean it. Or something.
Life is shit. Life has always been shit. The thing is, you either fight through it, or you get crushed underneath it.
And living life, if you can call it that, while being trampled over is no way to live. That sentence sounded really weird, but I think you know what I mean.
This isn't a Disney film, dude. You have to fight for what you want, or you don't get it. That's the way it's always been. And unless somehow Earth becomes a Utopia, where everything is always right, and nothing ever goes wrong, and everyone is always happy and gets what they want you're just gonna have to deal with it.
Sorry if I sound pessimistic, but really. It's the truth.
No dude, I really mean love. I know what it is. And I also hate it when some guys mets a girl and after a night he "loves" her just coz she's hot. Love is not only the outside. It's more the inside.
Thanks for telling me all that stuff by the way ;) It helps.
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Originally posted by TheOneNOnly:
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Originally posted by DJ Revs:
I'm sad :( I want my girl back :(
I don't truly feel your pain, specificly the girl part because I don't have those troubles, but I agree with the love part.
If you don't feel it, why say it? To make them happy? Is it truly love if you just say it to make them feel better? I'm just a hater of people that throw the word love around like it means nothing. It annoys the crap out of me.
If you didn't feel like saying it then, then she shouldn't of pressured you. But, I guess she just wanted to hear you say it. But something just tells me if you did say it, she'd think like you didn't mean it. Or something.
Life is shit. Life has always been shit. The thing is, you either fight through it, or you get crushed underneath it.
And living life, if you can call it that, while being trampled over is no way to live. That sentence sounded really weird, but I think you know what I mean.
This isn't a Disney film, dude. You have to fight for what you want, or you don't get it. That's the way it's always been. And unless somehow Earth becomes a Utopia, where everything is always right, and nothing ever goes wrong, and everyone is always happy and gets what they want you're just gonna have to deal with it.
Sorry if I sound pessimistic, but really. It's the truth.
He's right. Life doesn't fix itself...
If you're life is really bad, you need courage to change the things you can, serenity to accept the things you can't change, and the wisdom to know the difference.
You see, you've just identified the problems. Thats a good thing, Manoel, but now you have to isolate each problem and see how it can be fixed, or made more bearable..
Love is a scornful thing for a teenager when it doesnt go his way... Girls can be bitches and can be unpredicatble, and as much as it hurts you cant change it, really. You aren't alone, though.. I know how u feel. I could gointo detail, but there's no point, it'll be an identical story to yours or anyone elses. All i can advise is to move on. Don't look at the girls who let you down, dont talk to them and slowly, but surely you'll recover from the pain..
As far as schooling is concerned, if you can, get a job. If you can't learn, earn money for when you might need to learn, or live alone. If not, maybe home schooling is the answer?
As for friends, don't dismiss them straight away. Though, its best to find new ones... A job might enable you to meet new people. if you can't meet new people, use the ones you have for company. you dont have to like or speak to them but keep them at ur side for you're own appearence.. That's what i did with my bad friends until the end of college.. At the end of the day, where are weed smoking losers like them going to get compared with someone intelligent like u?
Nice one for sharing ur feleings, we might not know what each other look like, and we may only see words, but people across the world should and can be 'friends' and we can offer advise.
:) Get some liquid drum n bass going n get a smile on. maybe ur overtired ;)
PS, a girl i drunkenly met frauded my credit card! I hope she enjoys the £20!!
Thanks Olly, yeah I know, you're right. Well all of you are actually. That's what I'm all saying. Life sucks, why do we live ??!!?! lol
And yeah, I'll be probably home-schooling.. but hey.. I'm 16. I don't wanna spend every day alone at home. I hate school but I love the time I spend there, even with the people I don't like. I don't wanna be alone :(
And lol @ the credit card :O
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Originally posted by TheOneNOnly:
Yeah, I'm Agnostic, so I don't really know if there is a 'god', but I believe everyone has their purpose.
And that everyone has their special someone. Like my girl for example. Literally we have everything in common. EVERYTHING. And we've done almost everything the samewhen growing up, but we never knew each other. Like, everything in common. We even had the same locker numbers all through high school. But we lived a state apart, and never knew each other until this year. Even her old locker combination was mine, but backwards. Mine was 26-36-06 her's was 06-36-26, really.
So I can't help but not believe someone is out there for everyone. Someone perfect for you.
The thing is, life is a bitch. It's always a bitch. And unless you fight back, you won't get anything. The perfect girl for me was a state a part. All I saw it was fate, and life, pushing against me. I fought back, and now I'm the happiest I've ever been.
So the only advice I can give you is: Fight back. Fight back with every ounce of your strength. The minute you give up is the minute you die. In my opinion, anyway. The only way to get ahead is to fight back, and be competitive. That's the way it's ALWAYS been. And until you work hard for a better life, and a better future, it'll never come.
So, dude, life is tough. But don't give up. Giving up solves nothing, and only causes more sadness, more regret, and a crappier life.
Wow that's really.. wow, coincidence! I've had many things in comming with a lot of girls, but nothing like this ! Haha
I guess you're right too. You always gotta fight. But I'm not a fighter. I'm a lazy guy. Well I don't know, maybe I am a fighter. It depends what you are used to. But this shit I'm telling ya, with the girl, the school, the friends, my future, and also my parents which seem to be at the end of everything, coz I do that many shit, it's all part of my normal life. And I thought I'd share it. THIS is normal life for me. It's normal but it feels like shit. And you somehow never get used to it even if it's like that everyday. Seing my mum crying because she doesn't know what to do with me also breaks my heart for example. I'd love to do something but I just can't.. I'm sitting here and watching her and not moving my fingers. I feel like I've been exhausted from life since I was born. I feel like I was always 'down'. Like I always had a very very long school day with a lot of work behind me, however it's summer holidays and I don't do anything on the days.. pew I think I'm not made for this world, to be honest. :/
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Posted - 2009/09/02 : 02:53:21
If life was easy, it wouldn't be very exciting.
And yeah, it was awesome learning how much we have in common..which is everything. It was crazy, and now I'm a believe someone is out there for everyone.
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Posted - 2009/09/02 : 04:05:06
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I feel like I've been exhausted from life since I was born. I feel like I was always 'down'. Like I always had a very very long school day with a lot of work behind me, however it's summer holidays and I don't do anything on the days.. pew I think I'm not made for this world, to be honest. :/
if it helps... you are not alone, you would be surprised how many people feels the same man, myself included, but everyone else just hangs around pretending everything is cool and normal...
****!, life is so freaking boring and depressing
I know... "you gotta fight" "you gotta go on" meh! everthing is a bloody struggle in this world!
I wish we could fly away... and go to a land where we could be free...
no worries, just laid back, and chill
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Posted - 2009/09/02 : 04:40:37
when i get home from school tomrow ill type some shit out and see if it helps
been in the same thing as you 2 times, when i was like 13(yes i know im young) and now 16, ups and down, but im to sleepy so yeah tormow look for my post lol
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Posted - 2009/09/02 : 08:59:14
And smile in in the rain of course!!
Yeah thanks man :)
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Posted - 2009/09/02 : 13:03:29
eh... everyone who has ever put themselves out has been hurt. It's just part of life. If you never put yourself out there, you'll never get anything back. If you do nothing to avoid rejection, you'll get nothing.
Anyway, you'll get over the girl. It seems pretty bleak now, but everyone has been there. "OMG i cant live without her" 6 months later you won't care.
Time heals all wounds... apart from like...cancer...or aids... you're kinda stuck with that...
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